Feb 11, 2015

7 months later...


It's in quiet moments like this, with a cup of coffee on the nighstand and a sleepy pup beside me, that I have time to remember life before Florida. 7 months feels like 5 years these days. Germany might as well be a lifetime ago. I can walk around my home and see pieces of Europe around me...in photos on the walls, in bier steins on the bar, in knick-knacks resting on the shelves...but then I look outside my window and see palm trees and I'm brought right back to reality again.

I miss Germany, but not everyday. I thought I'd think of it constantly, but honestly, with a new job, new house, needy pup, and new life to carry on with, I think of it only in these quiet moments...or when I reach for a bottle of Riesling. If you had asked me 4 months ago how often I pined for Germany, I would have said EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. Cut to the 7 month re-pat mark and life's very different. We've adjusted...almost completely, although I can say it was hard. Really hard. And for more reasons than I care to mull over. But even in those hard moments, we realize we're in such a sweet season of life. One we knew we wanted, just didn't know when or how it would come about. We finally own the home we've always wanted, I've finally found a job that I can truly say I love, and we're getting back in the swing of life before Germany. A sweet season, indeed. It's almost like we pushed pause on June 23rd, 2011 and didn't press play again until June 24th, 2014. So weird how that happens...picking up right where we left off (or close to it, at least). Because I'm sure you think you know where this is going, I'll stop the reading ahead and tell you no, we're not expecting (sorry to disappoint you baby crazy ladies!)...but the conversations about that are more frequent than not. Seems like the natural progression of things, but we're still not there yet.

In other news of life post-Germany, D's new job is good. Different, but good. He still feels like the new guy and thinks he gets lost in the shuffle of business there. The squadron is massive, so it makes sense to feel this way, but with each passing week he gets more confident in his role, so that's a blessing. He's on the last leg of his Master's and will finish in May! Praise the Lord! I'm so proud of him. There's literally nothing D can't do. In fact, his possibilities are endless. From time to time we have those mind-jarring discussions about possibly leaving this Air Force life, but then we wake up with new eyes and table the discussion for later. I'm sure other military families can relate...the grass seems greener, but is it really? Taking it one assignment at a time, our motto of late.

A new biz update--being a travel agent is so fun! But it's also tough navigating working from home. Like, really working from home. I always thought I kind of did that with the blog, but that was nothing compared to the kind of busy I am now. I'm so grateful for a booming inbox and flurry of traveling souls to help (it's a great feeling), but there's a learning curve that comes along with working from home, I'm finding. I often don't know when to cut my day off...not answer emails and close up shop. Setting boundaries has been a struggle. I'm literally drawn to my inbox...way too excited to open up my booking engines. While it's a practice good for daytime, it's bad for nightime when my eyes are slowly crossing and D is wondering if my laptop is somehow becoming an extension of my arm (truth: some days I think it might be). Finding a balance between home and work will come with time. I know I won't be afraid to set boundaires forever (I am a yes-girl...learning to be a yes, but tomorrow-girl instead). I'm a work in progress. This new biz is a work in progress. But I do look foward to waking up and sitting in my office chair each morning. It's fufilling in a way Germany wasn't. That in itself makes this new chapter so rewarding.


As far as traveling goes, I still miss it everyday. That's the one part of this whole new season of life that I've not been able to tame. It probably doesn't help having a career based solely on the world of travel (I'm often daydreaming of my own fabulous vacation amidst planning for others), but at least it's still a part of my day to day life...in some tangible way. Truth is, even though we want to travel, we also want to do other things. Silly grown-up things. Like upgrade our walk-in closets and buy new patio furniture. Plan for expanding our family (someday) and saving for the day we could possibly leave the Air Force (maybe?). So many variables, so many possibilies in our new life that we can't frivolously jaunt off to here and there anymore. I get bitter about that some days, but I'm a conscious player in the change of priorities. These new things are all things I want, too. Being a responsible adult is hard, isn't it? D and I loved being less responsible in Germany. America, the land of responsibility! We had it good those 3 years. But we also have it good now. 7 months in and I still compare our Germany life to our Florida life. Apples and oranges (no pun intended). I probably will keep those comparison bubbles around for the forseeable future...lamenting about this and that, reveling in the change still to come. Nevertheless, I'm excited to see how my perspective changes as we creep closer to the year mark of repatriation. YEAR...that's only 5 months away. I can hardly wrap my mind around this. I haven't seen a real castle in 8 months (Disney doesn't count, sorry). That's gotta be like 10 years in Germany time. Time is a rude jerk. 

And with that, I give you my life update. We're good. We're happy. Florida weather is AMAZING. And I'm still super grateful for fo-yo...God's gift to America, I've decided. This is likely the only blog post I'll write this week. Did I mention keeping up with this space has been tough, too? I will get my ducks in a row. I will get my ducks in a row. For now, thanks for sticking around with me regardless of my inconsistent postings and lack of any Instagram content other than my dog and selling vacations. My life in a nutshell, folks. ;) Hope you all are well and I look forward to editing cruise photos for you to see...someday!

23 comments:

  1. Good to hear how things are going! I think it's always interesting to know how things change and how we adapt. I'm also sure you have plenty of lovely photos and trips stored up to keep this blog going for a long time. :) I haven't commented as much because I use Firefox at work and for some reason firefox won't let me comment on certain blogs. RUDE! But anyway, I made the effort to open up google chrome for this one. :) I'm so glad you love your job. What a wonderful thing to be able to say!

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  2. I was just thinking about you and how I missed your posts yesterday! So glad to hear that life is great - enjoy every minute and don't feel guilty about not being "here".

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  3. aww you went from traveling all the time to now helping people share in the same wonderful experiences you did!! :) I am sure it would be difficult to separate work/home while working from home! Try to set a certain time frame & tryyy to cut work off after that - easier said than done though, ha!

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  4. I know I will be right there with you in just a few months time! I will miss the travel life so so much! But after travelling for years on end, I'm ready to have a home base! And leaving the Air Force?? It worked out pretty darn well for us!! I think you get into this fear phase being in the military...like wondering if you will lose your job and so on....but it's been great! I guess it just depends!

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    1. I'll be thinking of you and sending all the good moving vibes I can! And it's so true…it totally just depends. So many life factors to think about…hopefully whatever road we choose in the future will turn out well for us, too! :)

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  5. I can totally relate to this whole post. It will be 1 year since we left Italy in 1 week...how is that possible?! I do find myself thinking about Italy every other day now, not everyday like when we first left. ;) Like you, I miss the easy (and cheaper) travel opportunities so much! America is definitely the land of responsibility in my case as well. Hugs!

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  6. Glad to hear your doing good and have adjust to your life back in the states.

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  7. So good to read that life is going that well for you in Florida! There will always be comparisons (my boyfriend and I left the Netherlands two and a half years ago now and we still miss it and talk wistfully about those days from time to time. Then we come back to reality and remember how happy we are with our current life in Switzerland. Who knows what will happen next!

    I'm happy that you're enjoying your new job, I guess it is always hard to work from home but I'm sure you'll get there and will be able to separate your office time from your home time :)

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  8. I'm headed to Florida this weekend to see my sister, I can't wait!

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  9. America, the land of responsibility. So true! I so wish I could just jaunt off to somewhere exciting, but responsibility keeps us grounded. Things like paying off cc debt and a redoing the family room....one of these days I will get my trip to Iceland!

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  10. Great to hear you've adjusted back! I guess seeing a castle daily here is something I've started taking for granted, and I'll also miss one day!

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  11. Loved this and how honest you are. I can relate in many ways, though I will say that you'll be surprised soon enough as life progresses how travel will be able to come back in as well! We spent years building our life here in the States, and finally, there will come a time when that passion will be able to return :)

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    1. Thanks, Casey! I sure do hope you're right about the travel stuff. We've done small trips, but they hardly compare to Europe. Still fun, though!

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  12. I'm glad you're both content! One of the hardest things about being an adult is balancing priorities, especially when you want every penny to go towards travel but you'd also like a decent place to stay in the meantime. I feel ya!

    Silly Medley: Lifestyle and Travel

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    1. Thanks so much! We're very happy in Florida, even though we still miss Europe. It'll always be a big part of us and our story. :) Balancing priorities is the pits! But we've all gotta grow up sometime, right? Glad I'm not the only one in this boat!

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  13. i totally know what you're saying...i miss the good days of just the two of us, all our carefree time to ourselves, my hubby worked for the airlines so we could fly for free and going wherever for a quick weekend trip or a big abroad trip wasn't such a faraway dream. we did it! a lot! and now we own a home, have a dog and a 16 month old baby girl, and no longer work for the airlines...haha. "real" jobs now ;) kind of a 180 but also a really good life. just really different.

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  14. Great update on life back home. We are in the opposite boat and just wrapped up our seventh month abroad. Sounds like you have a lot to look forward to (the walk in closet alone).

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  15. 7 months boy time has flown, you have done some travelling indeed and I am a little jealous of that, well I would be if I did jealous but I don't so I don't know why I said that oh well let's pretend I didn't I am leaving now because well I have nothing else to say and I keep making mistakes

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  16. I can't believe you've been in Florida for 7 months already! It doesn't seem like that long. I'm so glad to hear how well y'all have adjusted to your new life. And YAY on the booming success of your travel agent work! Yes, working from home is a balance, but I know I love it. Assuming Dan and I get the townhouse we want, I'm so excited to set up my new home office.

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  17. Your new travel business sound amazing. I am so happy that you have found something that you enjoy so much.

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  18. Sometimes being a homeowner and saving money is just so rough. It is hard to find balance, but it sounds like you are getting there! Lots of love <3

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  19. When you said it's like we pushed pause, it is so very true. From one expat to another. That is exactly how I feel. I also relate that to periods of time with my children. Lovely post my dear.
    Cortne

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